Giving Up

Author: Rifka Bose /

There are times in ones life when you just give up! These times when you give up on someone, is not because you don't care anymore, but because you realise they don't.

This sad but real realisation can at times shatter the soul. However, the courage and strength to do so surpasses everything!

All Souls Day

Author: Rifka Bose /

One day in the year when the graveyard looks like a candlelight party with flowers and flickering wicks dancing in the winds....

A day in the christian calendar when one is supposed to remember the dear departed. 

I wonder if all the souls actually gather on this day or do they feel sad that they are only remembered on this one day?


I miss the people who are no longer with me now..and how i wish we could actually meet all our long lost beloved souls on this one day!

Search

Author: Rifka Bose /


The search continues...

As the minutes pass and the days go by, the search continues….
What has passed, has passed and what has to come will come, yet the search continues…
Some things are just not in one’s control and yet we are a victim of our own choices, the search still continues…
How long will we search till we find what we are looking for? Yet the search continues…
Once we get what we want, will the search end or will it start afresh!

The search continues…

Answers

Author: Rifka Bose /

Answers arrive in more ways than one. Sometimes they come through us, and sometimes they come to us.

Words...

Author: Rifka Bose /

As i sifted through my pile of notes i chance up this one dusty but familiar note written by a muffinman i once knew. Are these words that just rhyme or are they deeper words sublime...

Birds fly across the sky
Beside my dreams of you and I
Though now it seems just in the sky
I know Ill love you, till the day I die

Now we walk two different paths
For all my mistakes, an aftermath
I will wait, will all my heart
To be with you again and make a new start

As you walk alone this painful mile
I pray youd stop for just a while
And think of all the good we shared
For all the love, how much we cared

And if you feel you have it in you
To give me just one more chance, I hope you do
Ill show you how much you mean to me
And how I long to be with you and keep you happy

You have changed and I have too
I promise, I still love you, I really do
So you dont have to change anything, or do anything new
Just say well work at it together, just me and you

Nothing can compare to my love for you
And regret my mistakes, I constantly do
But allow me the chance to show you Im through
With all my immaturities and foolish things I do

I just want to show you how much you mean to me
Just gimme a chance and Im sure youll see
That my stupid mistake was just bad history
And never will repeat, cos Im genuinely sorry

True to you and honest to me
Is all I really want to be
So please accept my apology
And allow me a chance to show my princess what she means to me

If I could compare what I feel for you
Its feeling something different something totally new
I have never felt this way before
And also have never been so sure
that though I aint no poet or wordsmith
its you my darling, that till death I want to be with.

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Turning Tables - Treasured Favorite

Author: Rifka Bose /




I somehow really relate to this song...i love her voice and the way she brings out both pain and conviction in her voice...

The lyrics:

Close enough to start a war,
All that I have is on the floor,
God only knows what we're fighting for,
All that I say, you always say more,
I can't keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can't breathe,

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you, you to just desert me,
I cant give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables,

Under haunted skies I see you, ooh,
Where love is lost, your ghost is found,
I braved a hundred storms to leave you,
As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down,
I can't keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can't breathe,

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you, you to just desert me,
I cant give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
Turning tables,

Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
When the thunder calls for me,
Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
Standing on my own two feet,


I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you, you to just desert me,
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables,
Turning tables, yeah,
Turning, no, ooh.

Invisible Friend

Author: Rifka Bose /

As i sit here all alone amidst these stark walls with a feeling of being totally bereft, i suddenly feel a presence, a feeling hard to describe. I just know you've come, coz you are the only one who arrives unannounced especially at times when i feel so lost.

Oh i wish you were real, i wish, but alas, my invisible friend, you can only but listen to my woes. I wish you'd talk back and tell me your thoughts, i wish we could go for a long walk and bicker and snigger. 

At times like these of total gloom, i really wish you came alive in this room...


Don't we all just need that someone at that point of total despair but sadly i think most us have to just rely on our invisible friend...

Break Point

Author: Rifka Bose /

People say "its time to move on"...but are we not moving everyday in tiny ways and more ways than one? I guess its when we have to let go and move on, that the battle begins...

Take the example of the trees that sway in a storm. The ones that don't try to stand up straight, tall and erect and allow themselves to bend and be blown with the wind; well they are the ones that understand the power of letting go and surrendering to the unknown. For those trees and those branches that try too hard to stand up strong and straight are the ones that break.

Impulsiveness

Author: Rifka Bose /

I found this beautiful quote on compassion and impulses by Eric Hoffer
"Compassion is the antitoxin of the soul: where there is compassion even the most poisonous impulses remain relatively harmless."


Reacting on an impulse can have serious repercussions but the presence of compassion super cedes everything. The sad part that i have come across in my life is that there is very little room left for compassion.

Everyone is caught up in the rat race called life! Do we really stop, see and think, that a single action or word or gesture can make a difference to someone or something?

 

Judge or Condemn

Author: Rifka Bose /

I came across this note and it really made me stop and question something i tend to do unknowingly most of the time.

Here's the note:

It is when you judge it to be something else that it shows up as something else in your life. Therefore, judge not, and neither condemn.
 
For that which you judge, judges you; and that which you condemn will condemn you. Yet that which you see for what it really is will see you for what you really are. And therein will be found your peace.

Don't we all pass judgement on people, emotions and situations? Maybe it's time we stop, step back and think :)