Comfortably Numb

Author: Rifka Bose /

This feeling of numbness surrounds every cell of my body. Is it a good or bad thing?
There seems to be a sense of comfort in this listlessness. Being oblivious to emotions, sentiments and feelings is a good escape route but how long can one escape from oneself?

It’s these very feelings and emotions that make each one of us unique individuals.

But if I feel numb, I don’t feel anymore, and if I don’t feel then how do I feel numb? The “feeling” still exists; I should feel nothing at all, shouldn’t I?

Could being numb be equated to being dead? If so am i comfortably dead then?

1st of April

Author: Rifka Bose /

The first of April or all fools day as known world over is day to pull a fast one on all your friends and dear ones.

Some say that this day had its origin when Noah sent his dove off too early, before the waters had receded. It was the first day of the Hebrew month that corresponds with April. There are different takes for this day.

However, for me, this day holds a very special meaning for it’s the birthday of a very special person in my life... someone whom i love more than anything else in this big wide world...my grandfather...

I was the apple of his eye and he the center of my little world. The moments we shared will be etched in my memory forever...be it the walks with him down Dhondy Road with the loony dogs, spotting the guavas together on the tree, running to the pump house to turn the water on, swinging on his lungi, climbing all over him like he were Mount Everest, or just sitting and listening to his stories of the war and army...

I will always miss my grizzly bear. Happy Birthday Dada :)